So I’ve been driving across the country with a friend of mine. Luckily she’s a great friend & I’ve been able to be really open & honest with her and discuss some of the gender/sexuality transitional stuff I’ve been going through. I’m not sure exactly what to call it…my genderqueer butch puberty? Anyways, it was freeing to pack for the trip in the first place, because since I’m not at work, or even in front of anyone else I know, I can pack such simple comfy clothes. Left to this freedom (I felt similarly on a camping trip a few weeks ago) I can pretty much dress like a teenage boy. I seem to be gravitating more towards men’s clothing these days. I was talking to my friend about how self conscious I have been lately as I shift the way I have presenting myself to the world. She encouraged me to do what I have been doing, which is allow myself to buy the clothes I feel like right now and dress accordingly, etc. I still am continuously apprehensive of how the people I know may react to any changes to my hair or dress.

More later…