Coming Out Queerer, Why do I look at my ex's Facebook page?

Why do I look at my ex’s Facebook page?

I take everything personally when I do this. Why did she visit my hometown when I’m not there? Was I just a fling to her? Was I just a photo shoot for a little while, emotionally involved enough to make good pictures? Why did she just post a pic of her previous girlfriend? Are they back together? I know this does me no good whatsoever .

I didn't hit my butch puberty until my early 30's. That's ok. It took me a long time to come out in the first place in a homogenous suburb in a hetereosexist society.

I struggled through all sorts of labels and identity to get to where I am today. And though a friend of mine says "labels are for other people, not for you" I do find them helpful at times. I started this blog as I was exploring some new labels for me. It's been really helpful to write about my thoughts on these matters. Thank you to all of you who comment, like, and reblog my posts. It's a great form of encouragement in my process of becoming me in a world that doesn't always react to subversive gender identities in the kindest way.

Today, if I were to pick a label, I would pick genderqueer butch dyke.

Maybe you think that's redundant. Maybe that means something else to you. If so, I would love to hear your thoughts. I'm serious!

Z. Rayal

My blog All of Tumblr

Follow on Tumblr

Following

RSS feed

Random